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[Oct. 30th, 2009|01:28 pm] |
I dont know why im having this weird feelings. Did i do anything wrong? I guess i did, this stress that lingers in my mind kills my brain cells. I no longer look forward to a brand new day. Its just the same feeling with leaving the whole house on your own. Doing everything on your own. I didnt know why i'd do that, but im sure i'd learnt from it. Once bitten twice shy. For you , that had maglian me in helping yourself, congrats to you on succeeding. However, karma do exist. This i always believe. Mom always taught, treat people the way you want to be treated. Im sure she's right. Ive been thinking alot lately and tearing more than usual . Sometimes you wonder, whats worth living for. I dont have an answer for it . Now, daily ive been wasting my life away when i should be in school pursuing the rest of my studies. This setback didnt bring me a light to guide me from the start. Did i make the right choice ? Whats ahead of me ?
Okay,today is friday. I should be a little happier (: Goodbye. |
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[Oct. 29th, 2009|11:37 am] |
Alright, Im back with more posts.
Last saturday was Mr and Mrs Teng wedding at Shang . It was god damn grand and amazing I should say. Brides look awesome, grooms looks fabulous. Their wedding was practically what everyone yearns for. On a random side note, I was having dinner with lee at a coffeeshop, there we overheard a couple having the intention of getting married . And oh yes, the man was trying very hard to convince his wife to be, to hold the event at a restaruant and not a hotel . Reason being : Old people do not know how to travel to modern places, for instant hotels. HAHA. In my opinion, it was rather a thought of stingy ? Lets hope that I could have a memorable wedding just like Pam's. (:
Down with slight fever, terrible cough ): Diagose to have low blood pressure, hope little lee is doing fine in there. So, headed to town with mom and aunt for some random shopping. Thereafter tuition,Lee brought to a doctor . Met Zy and Shan at Ikea. There's like so much things needed to buy if you've a flat of your own. Its something so loving to be done together, but yet on the other hand spending like mad. No,I shouldnt say spending like mad, I should say no choice. After that, headed to Mustafa for some window shopping and ended the day with some big hoo-ha and curry ben,like again.
In fact, some things kept in my heart which makes me feel damn fed -up. Paranoid or what :( Tsk, just hate this feelings. But ive learnt from my lesson, once bitten twice shy. Swear there won't be a second time. Its time to be good and yang tai.
I lost all my old dating photos with lee , damn sad now.
Tuition again at 5 today, in a dilema if i should turn up ! (: Shall see how later. BYE !
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| 19 weeks 3 days! |
[Sep. 11th, 2009|05:37 pm] |
Juicy gossips, I like. And anyway, I'd my routine checkup yesterday and now 19 weeks 3 days weighing 50.7KG, FAT ARSE i know. Oh, & travel down to TAKA with aunt for baby fair and I spent fifty bucks on baby clothing! A baby girl, all thanks to Edna and Shan for the 'shoving in' . Irregardless, as long as baby is healthy. So now she weighs 237grams, amazing she yawn with her mouth wide open and play with her hands last night while ultrasounding. Drove in to malaysia for our fullfilling supper with the rest and turned in only at 4am,all thanks to his wonderful snoring. Today is fryday, so i got nothing much to say. My enghish is berry the good with the link Pam had recently introduce to me. IM TRIED. (: BEYBYE. |
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[Mar. 8th, 2009|01:39 pm] |
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I've been falling into the grave that i've digging for myself.
Once again, i'm surprise with the nasty surprise that you brought to me, yet again.
This is it, i think i should stop building graveyards.
The cheek to tell me, the leaving and come back game.
You made me admire my patience and courage but despise my determination.
What am i still holding on to ? Heart, soul or mind?
Proclaiming to love me more than anything else and even yourself.
Is this said to pamper for the second ?
Is it you , or me ? |
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| Like woah. |
[Mar. 4th, 2009|07:21 pm] |
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Okay,like seriously sorry for keeping this space to be so empty ! Ive got loads of photos , but no time, i'll do it soon.
My purpose to be up here again with the fact that i think im going to befriend with something named crazy.
They always turned me into some idiotic one shouting and one thats just like some loser shit.
Okay, whatever it it, im tired from everything . Birthdays just like in twenty odd more days , another year older, not any wiser.
Im bound to be working, for sure. No plans for celebration, and i would doubt who would even bother.
Just a stubborn kid with attitude problem.
Okay, life such sucks effing big time.
Wondering why people do change so much over time , the importance is no longer the same.
The once said to be best for everything. HA HA HA.
I'll post up again back home cause im using the companys MAC ! Its damn awesome and tempting me to get a MAC desktop.
For fuck,i know.
rights, cramps is killing me ! Good day people. |
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| Be the one; |
[Feb. 24th, 2009|12:03 am] |
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What are you trying to imply on ?
Words and gesture doesnt match, totally.
I loathe you, seriously. |
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| Clearly proven. |
[Feb. 20th, 2009|11:54 pm] |
There again,clearly proven to be like a substitue . The warmth and love was received but nasty thoughts never failed to fall on me . Forgiving and accepting is easier than forgetting . How true, isnt it ? Speaking with the truth of my heart , i forgave , but i can never forget . Tell me what i should do to make myself look much more worth it ? Or just a little more ? I don't know , right now , having the temperature of 38 and voiceless, i still have to work tommorow ! I can't wait for my next off day ! :D
I'm tired, so goodnight,bye!
I miss the old you, ask me out and find more about me, wont you ? |
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| Leopard never change its spot, how true ? |
[Feb. 20th, 2009|10:25 am] |
Am i being over paranoid , or am i just the one asking for too much ? Don't blame me for my post always being so emo , it's really just that life isn't getting any better, for what reason i don't know why . One after another , did i really make out the chance that i gave ? I hope i really didn't . Once again , i felt that my life is so fuck up yet again being helpless . I know on the other hand , my friends always there for me . But yet always disappointing and shocking them out of their life . Not in comparison , but infact when i am with them, my eyes will glemmed with envy . I don't think i am really asking for much , but why is things just doesnt go the way i want to . Yes, this thing came too unprepared again . Life was a breeze for the last few weeks , i think i did enough ?
All the words came crashing down again , and now i hate the sight of my phone . A phone that will never ring with what i want to see or hear , it will never happen . Alright, i know i'm being fucking emo here , but my mood is just not there.
Talking about ten weeks of attachment , it'll be more than enough to kill me . I've to work almost everyday and having to wake up at seven odds in the morning , my body is collasping . With fever and flu , what more can i get ?
The nonchalance me have became so tame that i seldom talk , or rather talk as much . I'm really tired , tell me what to do.
( Whats wrong? ) |
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[Feb. 11th, 2009|11:30 pm] |
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Short one (:
Exams , for the reason that pushed me away from posting ! I want to get over and done with it .
Posted to Jurong for IPP , i need a full-time ahmad.
Last , but not least ; This is important , the surprise that kept my neck long , it arrived.
Tell me what should i do now .
Girlfriends, im sorry for turning you girls down for umpteen times, i promise to get things down & catch up.
And i know you all have been good and happy kids ! :D
Im tired , tired of thinking so much . I need to sleep.
Bye. |
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